Natmah's world: Believe in the highly impossible.

one year ago

2010-04-06T10:06:00.003+08:00

happy anniversary :)

I didn't know

What the hell was coming

One year ago
Caught me by surprise
On that morning

Our love came true
Who was to know

Leave your bags let's drive away

Take nothing but our love and all we gave
To make this happen
Doesn't matter what they do or say
We've proved them wrong there's nothing in our way
So let's keep on driving till time takes us away

(And to think that)

(CHORUS)

They said you'd change with time

They said that you'd move on

They told me you can't fall back into love

But Alas what do they know

We'll go when we got to go
'Cos for now, its all about

You

GUITAR SOLO :D

If its a prank its five days late

Constellations could not predict this fate

And I can't stop smiling

Recall the times we both survived

With wounded hearts but I'm really glad I strived

To keep on driving though you weren't by my side

('Cos in the end)

I didn't know

What the hell was coming

One year ago
Caught me by surprise
On that morning

Our love came true
Who was to know

That one year ago

(One year ago... [8x])

Who was to know?

not me :)

disengaged

2010-03-06T13:45:00.002+08:00

How was I to know it would be this hard?

Now my world is falling apart

Disengaged

Unexplained

Sadness in my heart

I should have known it from the start

That you're gone/

It was the day that I said goodbye

It was those days that I made you cry

And it's these days that now I find

That I'm the one trying to stay alive/

Now in these times I'm rearranged

Look at the time it all seems so strange

Maybe in time I'll be deranged

Look in my mind i'm disengaged/

(she's gone)

(CHORUS)

When you fail, you're meant to learn

But I've passed the point of no return

With broken hearts my life you turned

Inside out, so what have I earned?/

(CHORUS)

As I pick up the note that you left on the doorstep

All that I know is crumbling before my eyes

As I realize

And now the lights fade out and I feel you against me

Dying now like we've run out of time

You've disengaged my mind... (CHORUS)

maybe. just maybe

2010-02-15T20:30:00.004+08:00

just something short I wrote because I'm bored

I can feel it in the air

But i can't describe it

And it's crawling through my skin

And I can't help it

Maybe its time to hit the road

Maybe its time to let you go

Maybe its now cuz it just doesn't feel the same

Baby do you feel the same

Or am I hopeless

At trying to play this game

When all I know is

I know that something's not the same

Maybe it's time to hit the road

Maybe it's time to let you go

Maybe it's now cuz it just doesn't feel the same

Maybe its time to say goodbye

Maybe its time you saw me cry

Cuz I've been hiding all along

Lying cuz I know that things have changed

Do you think we can go on

With this emotion

Though I'm drowning, sinking

I'm reaching for your hand

Won't you take it, hold it

Save all that you can

Maybe its time you know the truth

Look in these eyes that lied to you

I should have told you that I knew things weren't the same

Maybe its time to say goodbye

Maybe its time you saw me cry

Cuz I've been hiding all along

Lying cuz I know that things have changed

VOTE NOWWW!!

2010-02-09T19:18:00.003+08:00

HI PEOPLE. (if anyone ever reads my blog)

my song is up on the website! pls give it a listen, despite the not so good recording and timing, and vote pls! thanks :)

http://www.songsofcampus.com/cos/o.x?c=/etp_soc/mlib&func=prop2&cmpid=1&ptid=4925&id=7256&myLanguage=english

your vote will go a long way in saving one more endangered species of saltwater pandas.

Home (es mi amor)

2010-01-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

This my entry for the People's Association song writing contest...unfortunately had to cut off quite a bit to meet the 3 minute mark D: but anyway please go to pasongcontest.sg to listen to the song (I don't think it's up yet though) and pls vote for it from 9 feb onwards! thanks :)

What if I said there’s a place in my heart that I know
What if I said there’s a place that I can’t let go off
It’s a place that I call home
What if I said there’s an island where happiness roams
Through the streets and the buildings, into our homes
Wouldn't you want to go?

Would you believe me if I say
That this place ain’t far away?

This is my home
Where I belong
Where we are strong as one
United we go on
Now is the time
To celebrate this unity
This land of opportunity
Singapore – es mi amor

What if I told you that people could live as one
Without regard to their race, skin or religion
A vibrant perfection
And what if I told you that heaven could be right here
Would you laugh, would you scoff, let that dream disappear
Well look around it’s clear

‘Cos you don’t have to look that far to see
The heavenly peace and harmony...

Of our home...(CHORUS)

INSTRUMENTAL

I believe that my home is like heaven on earth
A little dot on the map, but it’s the dot I love
My multi-racial, ever peaceful, beautiful home...

Butter Flies (COMPLETE 2)

2009-11-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

Unexpected

Never meant to say

Never thought today

Would be that day//

Misinterpreted

All your little ways

That you were trying to say

Your love remains//

Did you think I'd let you go-oh-oh?//

Cos' I'm living in a dream

Where clouds are candy, and the sky is green

I'm living in a dream

Where butter flies, but most importantly

I'm with you we're soaring through the clouds

Gravity can't hold us down

Go on forever more

Someone close the door

To reality//

Elated

What I couldn't see

What it turned out to be

More than I could I ever hope

And ever dream...

1-2-3-4

(CHORUS)

Running faster

Through the pastures

Of Sugar-grass and marmalade

The rabbit beat the tortoise

In the race that never came

'Cos slow and steady never wins the race//

(CHORUS)

Lean In

2009-10-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

Today's not a day
That's like every other day
I can feel it in my bones
It's rushing through my bones
Something special's gonna happen
Something magical's unraveling
Can you feel it in the air?/
Maybe love had found a way
To bring us back again
'Cos I thought it was over
But now I'm here to show you
Who I am, What I can
What I would do to be your man/
So come on take my hand
And soon you'll understand/
Girl lets start believing
The music that we're feeling
It's worth the wait
It's never too late
Lean in into my love
The magic that we're feeling
It's reality we're living
Don't hold back we're far from dreaming
Lean in to the feeling of our love/
Through months of enduring
The pain I was sure that
You'd move with time
Tried to slow down the time
But now time's not a factor
I've got what I've after
And forever I will wait/
One years gonna fly by
You won't realize why
It'll be so fast
And forever we'll last
We'll prove them wrong
They say we won't last long
But they don't understand what we've got going on...

:) lalala

Lead Wings

2009-09-23T19:12:00.003+08:00

"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

Lead Wings

A E D
Closet clean, to save her the time
F#m E D
Fully fledged but still can’t fly
Bm F#m D
Lead weight dragging me down
F#m E D
Falling till I hit the ground

Only angels can save me now
Don’t know why, and I don’t know how
Bm F#m
But though I try, I can’t seem to
D
Soar off to the clouds
F#m E D
Where’s the angels when you’re crying out?
F#m E D
Where’s an angel when you need one now?

A E
And my wings are anchored down
F#m D A
And I want to soar, but I can’t get my feet of the ground
E F#m
Dreaming high but living low
Bm E
Can’t remember but I want to know
Bm E A
What if angels can’t bring me home

Screaming out, cover my ears
Had enough of the blood and tears
I shed from attempts to fly
I bled from all the times I cried

What’s the world without another soul
Where I’m going I don’t know
But these Lead wings can’t carry me
Up and off the ground
Where’s the angels when you’re crying out?
Where’s an angel when you need one now?

Here goes nothing...

2009-09-10T20:44:00.004+08:00

Here's a little song that I promised I would write for you

Here's your valentine one day overdue

Here is all my love packaged in the lyrics of this simple tune

What I'm saying is I'm sorry for yesterday

And if I could go back I wouldn't make the same mistake

But I can't

dammit

Oh I definitely

Can't go back to the time

I was the best in your eyes

But now I'm at the bottom and asking myself

Why, why, why

Have you changed?

From a silly mistake I made, I know

There's nothing I can do

To make it up to you

For yesterday...

here goes nothing

Here's the card I made that i forgot to pass to you last night

Here's the flowers that caught fire and set alight

Our love into flames 'cos I didn't have a gift for valentines

And what I'm saying is I'm sorry for yesterday

And if I could go back I wouldn't make the same mistake

But I can't//

Please, please leave the door wide open

Without you I can't cope and

Live on my own life

When one half is drifting away

And you got no chance to get it back again

here goes nothing

Here's a broken man that wants another chance to explain

Here's his heart that you promised you won't take in again

Here's his honest plea telling you I can't live through all this pain

What I'm saying is I'm sorry for yesterday

And if I could go back I wouldn't make the same mistake

But I can't

I most definitely can't

But please love me anyway

Butter Flies (COMPLETE)

2009-07-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

Unexpected

Never meant to say

Never thought today

Would be that day//

Misintepreted

All your little ways

That you were trying to say

Your love remains//

Did you think I'd let you go-oh-oh?//

Cos' I'm living in a dream

Where clouds are candy, and the sky is green

I'm living in a dream

Where butter flies, but most importantly

I'm with you we're soaring through the clouds

Gravity can't hold us down

Go on forever more

Someone close the door

To reality//

Distracted

You're stuck in my mind

But I think that's fine

'Cos now you're mine//

Did you think I'll let you go -oh?

No I'll never let you go...//

(CHORUS)

Running faster

Through the pastures

Of Sugar-grass and marmalade

The rabbit beat the tortoise

In the race that never came

'Cos slow and steady never wins the race//

(CHORUS)

the best

2009-07-19T19:26:00.013+08:00

THE BEST

E B (?)

Why do I always find

That I go out of my mind

B C#m

To impress you

When I'm a mess

B C#m

I can't look you in the eye//

E B (?)

But now that you know the truth

Why do you still say

A B C#m

That I don't deserve you

C#m B

That I'm better off alone//

(And I've been thinking now) C#m C#m/D# (?) E

A B

You say I deserve the best

C#m

But what you don't know

Is that you've aced the test

So baby don't protest//

Baby shut your mouth

We will work this out

You know that you love me

C#m

I wanna see your smile

Hold you for a while

A B

Just the way that it should be

D B

'Cos I could wait forever till you see

A G#m F#m

Oh ba - a - by

There's no one else

B E

'Cos you're the best for me//

I'm too lazy to add the chords to the rest of the songs

hehe :P

Butter Flies (EDITED)

2009-04-08T21:36:00.006+08:00

Unexpected

Never meant to say

Never thought today

Would be that day//

Misintepreted

All your little ways

That you were trying to say

Your love remains//

Did you think I'd let you go-oh-oh?//

Cos' I'm living in a dream

Where clouds are candy, and the sky is green

I'm living in a dream

Where butter flies, but most importantly

I'm with you we're soaring through the clouds

Gravity can't hold us down

Go on forever more

Someone close the door

To reality//

Distracted

You're stuck in my mind

But I think that's fine

'Cos now you're mine//

Did you think I'll let you go -oh?

No I'll never let you go...//

(CHORUS)

our cry

2009-01-31T12:31:00.002+08:00

You are my source of strength
You are my everything
You are my cornerstone
You are my source of hope//
And we sing
The Lord is on high
The Lord is on high
We declare
The Lord is on high
The Lord is on high//
This is our cry
With arms lifted high
We offer our lives
To you
This is our cry
You are stronger
Than any other
You are God alone//
You hold the world in Your hands
You know my life's perfect plan
You sent Your son for me
And now by Your grace I am free//
(CHORUS)
You are my refuge
My fortress, my God
In you I will trust always
Through times of temptation
I'll soar on eagle's wings
Held by Your hand...//

for me

2009-01-08T18:55:00.002+08:00

i blogged! haha. amazing. i think this blogs just gonna be for my creations. :) much more fun. and less..committing..haha. as in no pressure to blog :P hahaha.

for me

2009-01-08T18:39:00.002+08:00

Stop sitting on the fence
Can you please make up your mind
'Cos its tearing me up inside//
'Cos you're giving me false hope
And no matter how I try
I must confess
I'm still a mess
'Cos its hard to say goodbye//
And you know
I don't want nothing to change
And I know
You feel exactly the same//
One day you say you love me
Then the next day you change
Then before I know you're back once more
Saying you love me again
How do you think I feel
When I never know exactly
How you feel for me
Can't you just make your mind up
For me//

just to clear any lost souls out there, this song has no relation whatsoever to any real life situation/event/occurrence/whatever. haha. i just thought this was a good topic to write about. :) actually i'm pretty proud of it if i say so myself. :)

LIES

2008-11-18T19:42:00.004+08:00

liza says my blog is dead. so i will attempt to revive it :P today went to watch madagascar 2 with sarah, janeen, liza, cedric (?)(lizas bro), chinyi, and amy. its super random. haha. the only part worth thinking about is the hippo and the giraffe. gosh i wonder what their kids look like. fat with a long neck and spots? well thats if they have kids in the first place as sarah asked in the cinema the question on everyones mind: 'how do they have sex?' HAHA. good question. :P
i had a very interesting sms convo with chinyi ytd. we were noobly debating who was better, tigger or pooh. obviously tigger. i think i won :D i mean tigger has his own movie. 'the tigger movie'. what can argue with that? furthermore pooh encourages obesity. ever watch the episode where he eats so much at rabbit's house he gets stuck in the rabbit hole? simple really. :)
ZOMG liza's brother is so..cool:) hahaha. i'm impressed with liza's amazing sisterly love. :P ok im not saying anymore. :D
uh...trained home today after movie with liza, chinyi and cedric (?) (lizas cool bro). as usual got bullied by liza and chinyi then went home. now on the comp and just watched some mcfly vids. i think the lies music video is really cool although ive watched it many times. haha.

MCFLY - LIES

so cool right? :D haha.
you know a few days ago my parents set this wierd and annoying rule that my comp MUST be off by 12 and i shud go to sleep that time?? 12??? madness. maybe janeen's parents influence them. apparently they gave the same rule to janeen. :P haha. must be the new parent's craze now. maybe someones gotta tell them its the holidays. HOLIDAYS. -.-

lalala~© who was the one who started this? :P

fairy tale

2008-11-15T13:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went training. my form was super inconsistent cause i never train for like two days cos i went malaysia. We played the sec2/3 to a game. Actually i started off really well scoring a hatrick in the first quarter. so were leading 3-0. from there on we were too tired to do anything and got owned. haha. i think the final score was like 5 to >10. obviously not to us.
Collected my report card yesterday as well. really praise god for the good grades. i know he will bless me next year to :P.

TODAY 15/11/08
um...nothing :P

I waited. I was not disappointed. I gave a leeway :P hahaha

fairy tale

2008-11-15T13:41:00.003+08:00

Every girl wants their own special prince
Maybe he came from a frog that she kissed?
Or did he wake her up from her sleep?
Or could he have searched the whole damn town for her feet
To fit that slipper//
Every guy wants their own sweet princess
Maybe she felt that little pea under her mattress?
Or did she let down her blond hair
And let he prince use it as a flight of golden stairs
Yeah, I don't really care//
Because you see...
I may not be prince charming
But i still have a princess in mind
She may not have royal blood, nor the hair for me to climb
But I really really want her to be mine//
So at the ball I will say...
Princess you will be my Cinderella?
And we will dance and dance and dance all night long
And even though the clock strikes midnight
We'll be alright
Because I know that I will not last long
'Cos one more day with you it can't be so wrong
And that's my fairy tale//

Dare to be different, occasionally wierd, and always yourself

2008-11-12T23:44:00.008+08:00

Long time no post..well i missed a day of blogging and thats bad enough. so here goes...

Liza says my blog looks like a girl's blog. after observing it a couple of times, i think she's right. haha. but its ok. dare to be different, occasionally wierd, and always yourself. :) but to prove my sexuality (which of course is that of a boy, for any doubters :P) this is something a girl wouldn't and couldn't do:

MY BREAKFAST TODAY

3 Roti PRATAS (happy Meredith???) with a heck load of Dahl
a plate of Malay Fried Rice
Scrambled eggs
Some potato thingy
Baked beans
two sausages wrapped in ham

MY LUNCH

salad
soup
bread

hehe. was too full for lunch. haha.

YESTERDAY 11/11/08

didnt do much. most of the day was spent looking after ashley and ethan. won't post much about it cept that ashley is UBER cute. haha. i forgot to take videos of her. sad. then after that didnt do much.

TODAY 12/11/08

today woke up earlier than usual, had breakfast with aunty karen, ray han, and jay han. then headed of back to singapore. it was a kinda boring trip. except near the end when it started raining like siao and my dad could hardly see anything on the road. HAHA. so cool. then there was like some sort of lightning show. haha. like i think a bolt of lightning struck the ground right in front of our car as we were driving. so cool. haha. then i had an interesting conversation wif my dad about my naivety (my fairy god motas like to abuse it :P), GEPers, and um...Jill's dad. hahaha. i enjoyed the one about GEPers the most. haha. and no, i'm not a GEPer so the conversation was not one about how great the GEP is. haha.

Blogging from Msia...

2008-11-11T00:09:00.005+08:00

My dad borrowed this wireless internet thing from his friend so i can use internet :D haha. um..i shall start with yesterday...

YESTERDAY 9/11/08

didn't to much as most of the day was spent in the car. travelling. when i reached singapore my mom went to do her hair, and i was left with ethan and caitlynn. my workload mostly with caitlynn. haha. at dinner we went to some restaurant..nothing special. till my bro called saying he brought friends over to the house. liza and janeen. hahaha. i find it highly disturbing that they entered my room. i knew my parents shouldn't have left him alone. to top it off, when i asked my bro what they did at the house he said 'u'll see when you come back' and just now when i asked liza she said the same thing. i'm horribly worried. hahahaha. (iwas hoping one of them would have posted on their blog whatthey did unfortunately they didnt :D) oh well i guess i WILL see when i get back..and if it isnt pleasant...hehehehehe. just a warning, i don't like, and i SERIOIUSLY don't like, unpleasant surprises. :)

TODAY 10/11/08

today was kinda fun. woke up kinda late.went for breakfast at the hotel. were like the last ppl there and i think they were gonna close the breakfast stuff soon. haha. after that my mom drove to the children doctor, doctor yaw, cuz caitlynn kinda threw up ALOT last night. yeah then after that, headed off to aunty yvonnes house to feed caitlynn her lunch cuz they have all the baby stuff there. haha. ZOMG ashley is supeeeeeeer cute. and like compared to ethan, and shes only two, she can talk uber alot. haha. the first thing i got there and i said to her 'wow u have rabbits!' she said repeatedly to me several times in a rather sadistic/cynnical voice and expression on her face: 'the rabbit die already. the rabbit die already' hahaha. cuz apparently they had another rabbit quite a while back that died. then she kept talking absolute rubbish like naked babies who don't wear pampers and how she caught a fish in the longkang (drain). when caitlynn finaly finished eating aunty yvonne brought me and steph to the mall to do some shopping. haha. (sorry i know u find the thought of me shopping wierd, janeen, but the truth is. I shop :D) haha. so today...i bought..

One hurley board shorts for RM 50.
One Giordano black Tee for..um...RM 39.90 i think...
One black Stars and Straps Tee for RM 30
One belt from the Wild Channel shop but i don't think it's Wild Channel..haha..for RM 27.

i serioulsy would have bought more but i ran out of money. haha. so after that we phoned aunty yvonne using public phone to pick us up cause we wanted to watch madagascar 2. so aunty yvonne brought us to megamall and guess what, turns out the stupid show not showing today. zzz. then me and steph were kinda pai seh to call aunty yvonne again so we cabbed to turuntum where i heard got new cinema. well there was, but they weren;t even showing the stupid show. waste my RM8. i think the taxi driver cheated us. haha. so in the end we ended up calling my dad to pick us up and stoning outside for like half and hour. then went home, stoned, went to aunty yvonne house to feed caitlynn dinner, then went to aunty siew ching house to have dinner...thats pretty much it. oh and just finished a plate of noodles. supper :D haha. i think im gonna get fat...:(

In Natmah world. unpleasant surprises are given a taste of abalone pie. with cat fur topped with fresh pencil shavings. straight from the platypus. AHH. lemon chicken hail storm.

MY SLIGHTLY ERRORED BUT FRIGGIN AWESOME BLOGSKIN :P

2008-11-09T00:10:00.008+08:00

MY BLOG SKIN IS DONE!

THANKS YIU YIN FOR THE COOL BLOGSKIN!

Although i don't know why you called it Natopia. haha. It's supposed to be Natmah world. haha..but i guess it'll do :D

!!THANKS!!

:P

IT'S OVEEER

2008-11-08T23:40:00.009+08:00

ZOMG. finally the gig is over :P we did pretty well for my standards and considering we only had like one practice together with elisa before the gig. haha. kinda screwed up 'lucky' tho. but i think we managed to re-collect ourselves fine :D SCREW NASRI. spoil my fantastic day. haha. but at least there was a shimmer of hope for United's future when Rafael volleyed home from a loose ball. FRIGGIN AWESOME shot. haha.
In the morning i went for youth worship prac at trade hub for the first youth service on 16 jul. Josh Oh came late. Ivan's guitar broken i think and he came like 45min late and we soon found out he never brushed teeth ;) prac was ok..there werent enough amps so Jon used a tiny amp that was about the size of...my head. seriously. haha. i think they called it a.....~~penis~~ amp. maybe it was another word i have no idea but that was what i heard :) hahaha. then chionged home then practiced wif my bro for the gig. After gig went dinner with relatives at Billy Bombers. We didn't have pen to fill out the response card thingy so we took the fork and poked holes at the respective tick boxes thingy. :)
It seems like i missed alot at the creation/evolution talk ;) apparently didn't miss anything exciting from the talk itself. haha. wud have been fun to see adriel act gay and ezra showing the way to flirt wif girls ;) (ezra if u see this, someday, somehow, don't blame me, that was the viewpoint of all the girls :D im just stating the facts).
Tmr going Kuantan...if stephanie was not going i seriously think i wud die from boredom. haha. To be honest i'm not really looking forward to going but oh well...
OH i think my bro posting our performance of 'before he cheats' on fb but at the minute havent finished uploading so i'll post the link later. maybe ill post it here too..if i have the time.
(GOT THE LINK! CLICKHERE and ENJOY :D and pls comment :D)

BILLY BOMBERS FRIES OWWWWWN :D

the candy floss hurricanes are starting again. everyone fly home. grab your cats.

bird/lizard/wierd creature/hopefully not human/ shit item

2008-11-07T22:08:00.004+08:00

Zomg..I'm exhausted. had a super long day..maybe not as long as janeen's dancing marathon, but oh well. I don't dance :) had to skip my precious training today to go for some sec 4 grad ceremony in skool. super boring. they go through EVERY SINGLE class, all 17 of them, saying every single persons name. Each class has like 30+ people...super long. super boring. so i super ponned/escaped. :D me and matthew said we were going toilet then ended up going canteen and eating $2 fried rice with chicken wings. We told out friends who were troubled by our unusually long toilet trip i had constipation and matthew had some other excretion problem ;). after that went home. I missed my stop cuz i fell asleep. thank god only one stop. if i went all the way to JE i'd prob jump off the track or sumthin. when i reached home, stoned, then headed off for neos camp recky. on the way i wanted to be a good boy and decided to hold the railings for the staricase at the mrt and ended up touching some bird/lizard/wierd creature/hopefully not human shit item. disgusting. anw, the place quite cool but ppl going pls bring insect repellent or you will die. I go there for like half an hour and kenah attack my like a billion mosquitos and 3 big juicy ants. also got alot of places to trip and fall and break open your head for your brain to spill out and provide 3 years worth of lunch for the insects and creatures inhibiting the place. :) AFTER THAT chionged home, then josh j suspected sam tan as a terrorist, then had band practice which was very fustrating. i was too tired to think. kept falling asleep while playing chords. and i dun think we're ready for tmr but oh well..we'll see how it goes :)

Waiting for my blogskin..

2008-11-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yiu Yin's comp crashed so i can't get my custom blog skin yet. sad. i'll have to make do with this uber boring, ethan-could-probably-make-it-with-eyes-closed, blog skin i found on some website.

YIU YIN FASTER FIX YOUR COMP

Today was boring. stoned at home. The fact that i actually made a blog which probably isn't going to last for more than a month shows how bored out of my wits i was. fascinating isn't it.

Man Utd should have beaten Celtic. Darn it.

o.O blogger??

2008-11-06T14:38:00.001+08:00

o.O how the heck do you use this blogger thingy?? maybe i shudn't have gotten a blog in the first place. I don't know why i did. maybe I'll just wait for some blog experts like yiu yin or liza to come on...zzz. But it will turn out right. In Natmah world. Everything does :D